sitting here wasted and wounded at this old piano
trying hard to capture the moment,
darling i dont know

thats all we ever do, sit!

were getting paid to sit!
yipee!
my kind of job!
hehe...

busy busy busy


got to get some sleep!

i can't say anything...

they made us sign a confidentiality contract...

my lips are sealed...

ziiiiipppp!

mmmppp!

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boring! why is it that maboring man dayon ang tao after a few minutes of doing nothing? kanikanina lang, nag laag2x pa gud mi ni den, karon kay wala na man sad ko mabuhat kay di man d.i ko pwede muapply ug bagong id sa summer kay ala man ko study load. so sa 1st sem na sad ko maka apply ug id ani! and so now, la gyud ko lain mabuhat, except mag anhi anhi sa skul kay boring man gyud kaayo sa balay and nakalakaw na man gyud ko and sayang man kung dili lang nako lubos-luboson. kapoy baya kaayo mubiya sa balay. pero diri pud, ga klase man gud na ang mga tawo. ganahan ko adto ayala, pero mahal na man. makagasto pa unya ta nga inihap na raba ni ang cash para summer. kapoy ug walay allowance oi! pero cge lang, think na lang ta nga practice para sa time nga naa na trabaho. kanang self-supporting na kunuhay ta. mura na man sad hinuon ni ug self-supporting ko. ako ra man daw bahala sa ako allowance. so mao na, lisod kaayo ang cash karon. man nag-internet pa gyud, mao na ni karon. pobre na gyud tag sayo ani. basin maka utang pa hinuon ta, nga dako na raba kaayo tag utang. so far, mga 1300? have to pay that soon. and

there i was, waiting for a chance, hoping that you'll understand the things i want to say...

close call...

waiting... waiting for the call. the call that will tell us whether we passed or not. and whether it is 4 or 8 hours, and how much the compensation. im thinking, if 4 hours ra ang lexmark, should i join the others sa gsis? pila sad kaha na sila ka slots available? sayang man gud ang adlaw. mulaka ko just for 4 hours? what happens to the rest of the day? better to work, para productive. na kaha 4 hour shift sa jobbi? :) i need something to kill the time with. thinking about morning sa gsis, lexmark sa pm, and ama sa nyt. its one long journey to mandaue. but i already have lexmark, and maybe i should just let others have gsis, pero if daghan d.i kaayo ang slots or unlimited, then sayang ang chance. what to do? but it all hinges on lexmark, maybe they will give us 8 hours for the summer, then ampay kaayo. la na gyud hasol. kanindot gyud unta sa kinabuhi. pero... whatever.

the question of the week. nadawat na ba gyud mi sa lexmark??? i would hope so. but i dont want to get ahead of myself. kay what if wala, man daghan na kog na plano, or na andam or what... ma.unsa na lang kaha? mura ra gud gihapon sa lotto nga gipalit kagahapon. karon pang gabii ang draw, pero nindot kaayo hunahunaon nga makadaog, pero still, you wouldnt want to get ahead of yourself, kay gamay ra gud ang chance nga matinuod. but still, what does this all mean? gipamedical na mi nila nga tag 1000 plus ang gasto, mugasto ba kaha na sila if la pa mi na dawat? highly unlikely, but what if? i really hope nga nadawat gyud pero if you want for something too much, and you prepare for it, it ussually doesnt happen. i dont want to get ahead of myself. but the compounding problem is my dad's condition that i can take a summer course if and only if i am accepted at lexmark and i pay for my allowance via the allowance at lexmark? if i am only to know about lexmark by thursday, at the earliest, then what of my ama course of which the enrolment is today? should i then assume that nadawat na ko, para lang makaenrol? and if wala? and another nail, i dont think lexmark's allowance is enough to cover for my transpo expences and meals for summer, granting that they will only allow us 4 hours a day instead of the planned 8 hours. the wall that was built is fragile, and it wont be long before it comes down.

we are fast approaching graduation as if! and it is high time to begin taking life seriously. sometimes! so do what we can to prepare all we can and we do it no matter how tough. the future of this venture may not be clear, and we may or may not reach its end, but i will come out of it saying, i tried. and when the time comes when my head must bow to the fate that await in my path, i will take it all, with naught but a sigh for i know in my heart that its all i can do, and tomorrow is another try. i may leave all this with sadness for having not completed my quest, but it will not be with my head down low and a heart filled with regret. i will leave thjis happy knowing i faught as valiantly as any could have. i will not stop fighting until i am unable to or i have reached my journey's end. that is mission.

rxns2rmbles

love and like. maybe its just be, but i cant help but feel abhorred by mr/ms??? tamkin's pronouncement that he/she hates love. i would admire a man who would truly hate man for some particular valid reason but it is apparent to me that his premise is wrong in that he primarily misdefined love.

As far as i can see, mr tamkin relates the meaning of love as to dating and one night stands. in that his allegory is wrong. if you would refer to love as that, then how can he justify loving his family, his beer, and his pie, as he so writes in the latter part of his text. does he mean then that he dates his family, his beer, and his pie? does he sleep with them? i would hardly think so. i will refrain from taking shotputs at mr tamkin but i will just continue on my own dire monologue.

true, love requires sacrifice, compromise, and most of all, commitment. it is not to be taken lightly. you may care for them. you may love them to some degree, but you cannot truly love them, unless you feel for them, you get to know them, commit to them. to sacrifice and commit means to offer your life to share it with someone else. that is love, as a partner. but there is also love as a brother and sister, father and mother, teacher, neighbor, and friend. but those are beyond the scope of mr tamkin's pronouncements. he emphasized more on the partnership side, so that is what i critique.

to share your life entails that everything must be shared, the good and bad, the past and the future. it requires much, true, so as i said, it cannot be taken lightly, and it is not the same as dating, nor sex.

but i do admit that singleness brings freedom, and with it, its joys. it comes often rarely, and it should be enjoyed, as it is enjoyable. but i do not believe in liking. i prefer LOVE in friendship.

begging you all a thousand pardons for my impropriety but i really am a hopeless romantic. and i fully believe in love, at the right time.

so were back. that was it. the excitement that has built up for the past 5 or so months have come to past and what have i to show for it??? absolutely nothing.
so was the tour really that bad??? no! it was great! but it could have been better. Damned bus rides! if we only got more activities than bus rides, it could have been perfect. its tiring being cooped up on a bus for so long. it gets claustrophobic after a while. and it also gets to be monotonous. it becomes just another day. thats my problem. i adjust to anything they give me. excitement dissipates rather quickly. but nothing can be perfect, so off and on, it was the best that it could be.
if not for somethings...

Famous Quotes...love them, hate them, i dont
care!!! happy vacation peeps

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"Live hard, die young, leave a beautiful
corpse." -James Dean

"Our existence deforms the universe. That's
responsibility." -Neil Gaiman

"I'd rather be hated for who I am rather than
loved for who I pretend to be." -Janis Joplin

"Hope for the best, expect the worst. Life is a
play. We're unrehearsed."

"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go
back in the same box." -Italian Proverb

"One never notices what has been done; one can
only see what remains to be done." -Marie Curie

"Music and women I cannot but give way to,
whatever my business is." -Samuel Pepys

"Live like you'll die tomorrow. Dream like you'll
live forever." -unknown

"I know well what I am fleeing from but not what
I am in search of." -unknown

"I never think of the future. It comes soon
enough." -Albert Einstein

"Leadership is the ability to hide your panic
from others." -unknown

"Man will occasionally stumble over the truth,
but usually manages to pick himself up, walk over
or around it, and carry on." -Winston Churchill

"I never hated any man enough to give him his
diamonds back." -Zsa Zsa Gabor

"Life and love is all there is. Everything else
is 'surface ditties'." -Ruth Banick

"In this Century, we've got to astonish people.
One can't charm them anymore." -Jules Verne,
Paris au XXe siecle

"Of all the things I lost, I miss my mind the
most." -unknown

"When choosing between two evils, I always like
to try the one I've never tried before." -Mae West

thanks to b-ver

blind eyes will never see the truth
the blind heart will never feel the rapture of
the soul
a heart offered to someone believe to be true
will be of nothing
and will never be consoled for all its suffering
thy blind heart will cease to be adored
thy blind eyes will never see the bright tomorrow
of the angel's touch
will never be adored by the angel within the
shadows
wil never more be protected from the cold rain
nor from the harsh southern winds
thy heart will never see the face hidden by the
shadows
awaiting the final curtain call
thou will wait in vain
thy waiting wil be consoled by nothing more but
thy own tears
this is goodbye
a farewell from the angel from the shadows
a farewell to someone once adored
a farewell to what might have been
a farewell to my wings' warmth in the cold of the
nights
a farewell to the songs that i might sing in the
evening till dawn break
farewell, farewell, farewell
farewell to the hands that might wipe the bitter
tears on thy cheeks
farewell to someone awaitig the shadows brought
by the evening mist
farewell to thearms that would have embraced thou
in thy moment of despair
farewell, farewell, farewell

thanks to grandier!blind eyes will never see the truth
the blind heart will never feel the rapture of
the soul
a heart offered to someone believe to be true
will be of nothing
and will never be consoled for all its suffering
thy blind heart will cease to be adored
thy blind eyes will never see the bright tomorrow
of the angel's touch
will never be adored by the angel within the
shadows
wil never more be protected from the cold rain
nor from the harsh southern winds
thy heart will never see the face hidden by the
shadows
awaiting the final curtain call
thou will wait in vain
thy waiting wil be consoled by nothing more but
thy own tears
this is goodbye
a farewell from the angel from the shadows
a farewell to someone once adored
a farewell to what might have been
a farewell to my wings' warmth in the cold of the
nights
a farewell to the songs that i might sing in the
evening till dawn break
farewell, farewell, farewell
farewell to the hands that might wipe the bitter
tears on thy cheeks
farewell to someone awaitig the shadows brought
by the evening mist
farewell to thearms that would have embraced thou
in thy moment of despair
farewell, farewell, farewell

thanks to grandier