journey's end

whatever path we take,
what choices we make,
no matter what we do,
the road will end.
and we must come to terms with our lives
so this week has got me facing death.
cha's granma just died last sunday
and this is the closest to death ive ever been to.
my relatives that have died have always been distant
cept for my lolo, but we didnt get to attend the burial
so here, ive come to thinking again,
what if i were to die?
would anyone mourn?
or would people be happy?
why?
and i realize, im not ready to die
theres a lot in this life that i should be sorry for
like not going to mass
not having confessed
not showing affection
i believe that if i could get through these,
id be ready to die.
and the solution to this is so simple...
yet visibly hard to do
attend mass,
have confession,
and learn to show love...
but simple as it may be,
i havent been able to do it.
and this should stop.
i must live a life of no regrets
a life, when i am always ready to die...
knowing that i have shown my love
to all that i do.
maybe someday...

maybe soon.

im not a poet, but i do love poems.
im not a singer, but i love to sing.
im not a writer, but i love to read.
so how may i state, what i wish to be said
when i have not words?
how disappointing
offered
not taken
how disappointing

and back again

how time flies
no i mean really
a time past when i would log to net just to read friendster and post in my blogs as often as i could
but then the projects came, that great big stumbling block that took my time, energy, money and life for a good part of the great historic void of non-netopia
or is that really the reason?
i may not have said, but great changes have come to my life since the last that ive posted here
the most obvious of which is the fact that ive finally graduated from university. after all those adventures and misadventures, i finally succeeded, and on time too. kudos to me. hehehe
anyway, add to that is that i finally got a job, in lexmark! surprise, surprise
and the greatest news of all, i have a girlfriend:
my love, my life.
my star, my home.
now, though i think there must be something seriously wrong with someone who would take a liking to me, she mustn't have known me well enough, good thing she was too shy to ask too many people about me, or she would have changed her mind, i must admit that i am happy. ecstatic even.
the road to here has not been easy, but nothing could stop me, i have my angel with me. through ups and downs, shes always been with me, and i cannot see my future without her.

cha, i love you. dont ever let go. always, and forever, viki.

so to the journey ahead, i must say that with what ive been through, nothings impossible, with in realms of possibility.
til the next, and hopefully soon...