as im writing this, im approaching my 22 hour of no sleep. been onlyn since 11 last nyt and april and jms have come and gone.i dont want to go home until maybe after 4. i dont really know why. all my plans for today have gone down the drain and i no longer feel like leaving the house after i leave this office. everywhere i look in this room, theres a reminder of the sugba thing tomorrow. boxes of sauce, basins of meat, tshirts, flyers, blah blah blah.

i dont get it. i dont get her. i thought she wanted it. she acted like she didnt. and she asked me if i will. irritating. whatever. maybe she asked out of... whatever.
damn it. ive made different plans. now these plans wont push through and so im left with nothing to do. i need rest anyway, but that is besides the point. my point is, i schedule my plans as they come. if i have something planned, i rarely change it for anything else unless i have to, or i can do so with agreement from related people.

and i have. so i couldnt just change it. until they did. now my schedules all wrong and i dont know what im doing. people! so hard to understand. cant understand simple order of things. fine then!if you dont want me, i cant help you. tell me to leave, and by God, you can have a whole world to yourself.

whatever. im sleepy. got to go home now. goodbye!