Sad Thoughts

As ever, i am again caught in this sad state of depression, i think. it is becoming so common to me now that i have become used to it. not used to it in a happy sort of way that i can bear it when it comes, rather, used to it as in ive come to expect that it comes every now and then.

But i am not really used to it. it is depression after all. it is a feeling of being terribly down. down, to a point that one cannot get up. i know that this can be avoided, remedied. but how can i? how can i, when i am putting myself down in the first place?