undated
...trying hard to dlend into the environment and failing miserably. OTOH, the most famous of men were those that lived notably exemplary lives. but do i really want to be famous? is world appreciation really my meaning in life? where can i find answers to such questions? if there were an oracle in this world to search for that would give you the answers to all the questions that you want to ask, i would search for it. but there is none. and so i sit all alone wishing all my feelings were gone??? an ideal way to understand oneself would be through the aid of one's friends. they could give you the much needed assesment of our actions better than we could ever do on our own. but friends can be biased and they are mostly too kind as to overlook such details of ourselves that they believe would hurt us... or do they? so when asked, they would rather not say anything, or don't they???

whatever, but this brings me to a point of question... can it be solved by fortune tellers? does someone really hold all the answers to our questions? even if they don't, maybe they can give the satisfaction of an answer that we want, even if it is not the truth. but even if it does, perhaps i'll always doubt the realit since i see no proof or it offers no assurance of being the truth. damn it! i hate being too rational.