declaration

it has happened again. this is the second time this sem that i have helped others with their projects and we have ended up with the same one. This, for me, is i guess fine. it is inline with my doctrine of being a man of service. but it seems that it is detrimental to the group i am in.

ngano man, nga kun ako ang mutabang, mugawas man gyud nga ako ang nagtrabaho? ngano mahatag na man hinuon nako ang akong nabuhat sa ila ug mao na man pud ang mahimong ila? y is that? kabuang ra man ni nako, i know. pero i have never intended to allow my groupmates to suffer the consequences of my conduct.

i have seen the fear and anxiety in their eyes as a result to nothing they were part of. it bleeds my heart to know that they are troubled. it creates an unrest in me wherein i am forced to seek solace within myself and try to review my ever so wretched life.

kung naa man gyud gani ang makapaguol sa among grupo, let me not be the cause of that. or if ever, let me have done all i could to prevent such.

so, despite my very best of intentions to be available to all that may require me, i have mournfully decided that the line must be drawn. quarter must be given to those that matter more. simply, i am sorry to say, i can no longer help other group as before if there is a likelyhood that the company i am in bill be disadvantaged. and to those that are affected, i can only say, "im sorry. but a commitment requires adherance."

i cannot bear to see anyone suffer in my behalf, especially those that i answer to. i am just not worth it. i never could take it, i never will.

this is where i stand.